What you are is God’s gift to you; what you do with yourself is your gift to God! (Danish Proverb)
There is more to recovery than just not drinking alcohol or using drugs. I was once asked by someone if I was ready to start growing up rather than throwing up. This implied that I must have been an immature person, even though I was thirty-two years old at the time. This was a great question. I believe that I was a very emotionally immature person at that age. Becoming mature seemed like a worthy goal or need for me at that point in my life. How was I now to become mature and play “catch up”? I had a lot to learn. The fear of really getting honest with myself was overwhelming at times. I needed courage, acceptance, and gratitude. The old attitude of, “I’ve always been this way” had to be abolished. I had to learn how to be patient with myself. I had to be willing to change. The maturing process was going to take time.
I have experienced how courage has helped me in my maturing process. I rely on courage to help me change the aspects of my personality that make me less than lovable. It takes courage to look honestly at myself and recognize the weaknesses of my character. It takes even more courage to sustain emotional poise and a willingness to continue in recovery. It takes courage to get at the roots of addiction. I can give up any time and take the easy way out, or I can maintain courage and not let using alcohol and drugs be an option for me. I must be aware constantly of any fear, resentment, or self-pity in myself. It takes courage to think positively and act affirmatively. I believe that as I pursue these intentions daily, with practice, they become habit and a natural part of my manner and character.
Alcohol and drugs cause a lot of difficulties. These difficulties, however, can sometimes seem easier than facing ourselves and making the changes necessary to be happy and free. The sober life is not always easy, but my worst days sober have been a lot better than my best days drunk or high. I remind myself as often as needed: “this too shall pass”.
Acceptance became vital to my awakening from an unconscious state of self-destruction. I knew I needed to accept that I had a problem. This acceptance became my ascent into the reality of the situation. I began searching for a new way of thinking that would create better results in my life than the old thought patterns of self-pity and fear. Acceptance was the antidote for my diseased thinking. Acceptance was the impetus that set me on the path of growing up…instead of throwing up! I discovered more light and more truth. With acceptance my struggle was over. I became at peace with my past and present circumstances.
Gratitude, like acceptance and courage, became something that I had to develop and to nurture. I had heard before that God will give us the wind but we have to set the sails. In other words, I had to do my part and the “footwork” necessary for change. I started to believe that an attitude of gratitude helps set the sails for smooth sailing on the sea of joy.
Gratitude has immense transforming powers. I learned to use gratitude to guide me through the toughest of times. Gratitude helped me to feel better when times were stressful and even more joyful when times were good. I discovered how gratitude breeds joy and kills fear. I wanted gratitude to be a normal part of my character, with a cheerful expectancy for all the good life has to offer. My intention now is to live life and to do whatever has to be done in a spirit of gratitude.
The bottom line for me now is to keep practicing acceptance, maintaining courage, and loving more with constant gratitude! This quest must be as important and valuable as the air that I breathe. I understand now how we are all connected in this web of life. Today I have a conscious choice. Every moment is a choice. I have realized that miracles happen when you change your perceptions, beliefs, and attitudes. There really is a way to create harmony from chaos.
Do you make choices that create happiness? What’s possible for you now?
Greg Wilson is an artist, writer, speaker, and Life Coach. Greg is a certified addictions counselor with a Master’s Degree in Education. More importantly, he is a recovered drug addict. Greg Wilson has a passion for yoga and is a certified yoga instructor. Greg is an avid reader, a follower of alternative health and healing, and a lover of the great outdoors. Greg can be reached at: email@example.com
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